WHY? :(

why does he keep on haunting me? why cant i get rid of him? why cant i move on?...i thought everything was okay, i thought everything was over but why am i crying again, remembering everything. it's been too long and i have been trying to move on for quite some time, but why cant i? is it love? anger? depression? or just plain old stupidity?...

there are times that i know that i have moved on...but then again, something happens and here iam again, feeling depressed and alone. im sick and tired of feeling this way, i have been heartbroken many times and i regain my heart back fast, but what happened now? i have so much resentment, so many things to say. i have decided that i dont want to be stupid again but it is always a stuggle for me to stand for my decision. i know that we are not really meant for each other, i know that i must move on and go on with my life which he already did, i wanted to heal my wounds...i thought time can heal it..but i guess not.


i hate this fucking feeling :(